Where does your heart lie?

As I started my morning trying to get a start on the things I needed to do to move forward in the next few weeks, I received some news that I allowed to really up set me.. I reflected on how and why and unjust and unfair it all was. I thought about how I would have handled the situation if I was in both parties shoes whom was involved. No matter how hard I tried to push it out of my mind I could not get it to go away. I just kept thinking why? Why is being a good, honest, obedient person in life seemed to get the shaft? 

My husband saw how upset I was and asked what was going on. As I told him yet again the injustice and unfair situation and how if it were me in these peoples shoes what I would do different.. 

He simply said "you have taken your focus off Christ and are putting your trust in man and not in God". I thought to myself... NOT TRUE! Then a still small voice said "it is true". As I broke down, I told my husband: "I feel I'm failing miserably at this. I am trying so hard to turn away and face the lord but I am also being pulled by the natural man and wanting so much to be angry and want justice. I truly am having such a war going on inside. All the money we have lost in this is just not fair in trying to do what is right".

Then my husband smiled and said "you are not failing. The fact you are battling this shows you are far from it. You are simply realizing that as you face this trial you have things to work on you were not fully aware. You have taken your eye off Christ in all this and placed it on man and worldly things. Try to let go and refocus. 

As long as we focus and put our trust in man we will always be disappointed and always be miserable". 

I just cried. He was right! All of it!

As I continued my morning, I will be honest, I battled the comment heard often.. " Why do good things happen to bad people and why do bad things happen to good ones"? 

I was reminded, by the spirit, that God does not walk on crooked paths, so rewards given to men that do wrongly are not of God. Numerous examples flooded my mind both scriptural and things I was aware of that had happened.  

I then was reminded of a scripture we read together this last week.. I replaced the name given in the scriptures with my own name and I felt as if the battle stopped... 

D&C 6: 20 Behold, thou art "Tiffaney" and I have spoken unto thee because of thy desires; therefore treasure up these words in thy heart. Be faithful and diligent in keeping the commandments of God, and I will encircle thee in the arms of my love.

I then reflected on Matthew 6: 19 ¶ Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:

 20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Although our loss in "worldly riches" is great in the eyes of the natural man it is not as important as the loss I would have if I don't refocus and lay my heart on the eternal goals and treasures my Father in Heaven has promised.  

I have been blessed beyond words in my life and I do have so very much to be greatful for! The gospel of Jesus Christ is one of them. This may have been a hard battle and the war is not over... but I did not lose... I am still fighting and the lord is right there with me. 💕